Saturday, September 1, 2012

Remembering a “Non-Birthday”

When a woman finds out that she is pregnant the first thing she does is find out when her due date is.  We want to be able to look forward to the amazing moment when we will meet our child for the first time.  That date is forever embedded in our minds.  We’ve all done it! 

I can remember when the due date of my first miscarriage came about.  That day was a little more difficult for us than I expect for others.  We actually had a tree fall on our house during the hurricane that came through Richmond last year.  The tree landed in the room that would have been our nursery.  Talk about adding insult to injury!  That day brought back so many bad memories.  This was my first pregnancy after cancer and quite honestly I didn’t think I would ever get pregnant.  To later lose the child was almost unbearable!  That day came and went and once again the feelings began to fade.

I have never forgotten my first pregnancy and that baby.  I constantly wonder what the child would have looked like.  Whose personality would it have had?   Was it a boy or a girl?  It has been a year since our first loss and now that dreaded date has come back around.  This time it would have been our baby’s first birthday.  I did remember the date this year, but not until the day after.  I encourage you to remember those dates and embrace them because they are part of you. 

My prayer is that one day when my family is complete that the pain associated with those losses will lesson and I will feel whole again!

1 comment:

  1. Thank you for your openness and honesty - you are a beautiful person.

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